The message of ‘WRITE’ has been very pressing in my life the past several weeks.  Every time I am in a place of heart-centered awareness (when practicing yoga, cooking, etc.) the word ‘WRITE’ has been flowing through my mind so I wanted to share with all of you what is on my heart. J  Today I want to speak of dreams, the kind of dreams that may appear as only a distant fantasy.  A sort of alternate reality you like to imagine yourself in when you’re fed up with the cyclic motions of your current reality. 

I had a breakthrough this week.  I am training to teach Barre at Urban Yoga (teaching Thursdays at 7:15pm)  and I was in the studio alone practicing; trying to cue and speak at the same time!  I was getting slightly frustrated with myself because I was finding it difficult to speak throughout the entire routine.  I started fretting about HOW on earth I was going to be able to cue for an ENTIRE hour & practice great posture all while appearing to seem unaffected by the intensity of Barre.  I started to sink even further contemplating the possibility of my health concerns stifling my teaching ability and I sat down, heavy.  After a few moments I took several deep breaths & I had a beautiful imagery of myself as a little girl. 

Some of my earliest memories are of wanting to be a dancer.  I use to watch Dirty Dancing on repeat and I would force my poor brother to practice spins & dips.  I had quite the imagination! I would pretend I was in a dance studio and I was a ballerina with the fanciest tutu in all of Texas.  I spent SO much time pretending to be a dancer in my studio yet until coming to Urban Yoga never had the privilege of practicing in a dance studio.  I had been a drill team & cheerleading captain but never did we practice in a studio. 

Sitting there in my self-pity I realized I had dreamt of this moment!  Countless times I had envisioned myself in this place that only I could see and now here I was.  My attitude immediately shifted, was I going to let my need for more conditioning cloud my sight of a little girl dream?  Hell no!  I have arrived and it is up to ME to enjoy & appreciate the gift I have been given; the dream that has become my reality.  The point is not for me to be perfect at my routine.  The point is for me to enjoy what I am doing so truthfully that the ladies who attend my class will feel this energy and understand why Barre is so beneficial for their physiques.  Of course I will be guiding the class but it will be my enthusiasm and energy that will resonate with their experience.  So who care if I miss a step or sound a little winded, they will still be working up a sweat. J 

I was given this experience because I dreamt it.  Yes my studio was in need of teachers and they asked me to come on board, but that is not what drew me to Urban Yoga.  My imagination has always been my greatest friend/foe and as I am learning the power of meditation and attraction I see how I have already been doing this most of my life!  Yes when we meditate we are suppose to clear our thoughts and eventually emerge into a higher state of consciousness, but isn’t this where the imagination lies?  When I want something REALLY badly I dream of it often.  I meditate on the way I would feel if I had this wish, what colors would be present?  Who else would know about this wonderful gift?  Every detail flows through my consciousness. 

Amazingly so, my meditation has made these experiences much more focused and as a result I have been attracting that which I have imagined!  Doors are opening that have been open only for me.  Sometimes it freaks me out but then I remember the same must be true for the negativity cycle we can become part of.  If I can attract new opportunities and abundance to myself what happens when I am in a sour mood?  For an extended period of time?  Let’s just say ‘the you know what’ can really start to pile.  It is in these moments when we start to lose sight of our dreams because it gets too difficult.  We feel as though we are almost there and then something happens that tests our faith.  We fall and do not get back up.  Then we settle on something that suits our skill set or is convenient.  Our dreams are pushed to the side and seen as fantasies of our childhood.  We begin our routine and somewhere along the way problems creep up.  We develop an eating disorder – too much, too little; have a negative attitude, abusive relationships, physical illness, etc…the pain of loss reveals itself in many forms.  I have been there, in maybe more than one of these situations.  I have been in very dark places, the way out sometimes very undefined.

What I did have was FREE WILL and HOPE, a gift we have all been given.  We ALWAYS have a choice, one that will serve our higher self and one that will have us continue on our current path.  This means we also have the choice to hope for a better tomorrow and to dream that future into reality.  Our mind and hearts are very powerful.  Our body regulates itself without us asking it to do so.  When we focus our attention to listening to our heart’s desire miraculous happenings begin to occur.  I can attest to that.  Of course I have off days, some days the pain from my ailments can be so bad that I have no choice other than to surrender to it and nurture myself.  However, when we are living our dreams on a consistent basis, the rest of our lives are affected too!  We eat more consciously wanting our bodies to be at peak performance to carry out our goals.  We have more loving, uplifting relationships because we will only allow those in our lives that are an addition to our miraculous path.  So I ask you friends, how can you revive a dream of yours today?  What makes your heart sing?  If you don’t think you know ask your heart, you’ll definitely find the answer you’re seeking.  As always, share any thoughts or questions on the blog or by emailing me at missnutrish@gmail.com Namaste.