Ultimately, there is nothing that separates us, yet everything we let. No wait, there is a force that separates us; our fear-based ego. Not our insecurities, accomplishments or misfortunes, because ultimately we all have the same deep seeded desires. We layer these desires with fear, anger and hurt, like winter clothing. We hope that those around us won't acknowledge what each layer represents. We cover the fear of being abandoned with our fear of being seen, then top it of with anger towards those who have more than us. And there we stand, with our suit of separation.

At a very superficial level, we truly believe this suit to be one of protection. It's purpose is to keep those out who may inflict more of which we are already wearing. Yet underneath the heavy layers lay what we have been hiding; the beauty of our precious soul. We protect it like we would a small child, because intuitively we know the preciousness of this gift. There lies great trouble in this mentality; it keeps our likeness on lock down and offers only our rejections to be viewed.

This has been me. The life I have lived, one of fear wardrobes with my light and love carefully covered. Deep down I've always been aware of my heart's need for expression. Sometimes it would well up so much that I would lose control, totally missing the opportunity to express love because I had barracked my heart for safety. This led me to experience so many missed opportunities, fear-induced freak outs and what-ifs. I say NO MORE!! I am sick and tired of being led by my ego while suppressing my soul's desire for expression.

When we are led by our ego, our reality can be very skewed from the actual truth. At the time, you are not quite conscious of how your decisions are being based from your ego. This is why mindfulness, in every area of life, is detrimental to living a life of our own design.

That is what I want for myself. To live a life of freedom and of my dreams. Not one that is of circumstance. I was born into family like this, therefore I AM like this. No way! That is not how my reality is going to work. So my friends, I have decided to bare it all. To release my fears and shed my ego's clothing and bare more of my true nature; which is NOT always put together. In fact, I am quite the beautiful mess; always dropping, spilling things and laughing louder than quite appropriate. FINALLY, I am coming to terms with the calls of my soul and the duality of myself.

You see, when we chastise ourselves for 'shortcomings,' we are actually denying a part of ourselves. What I have come to learn is that for every dark quality we possess, there is an equal, opposite strength that accompanies it. So if we want to evolve ourselves then we must shed light on these dark qualities so that they can guide us in our growth, rather than hinder it.

Which is why for my birthday month, I will be celebrating authenticity and sharing with all of you more about the lady behind Nutrish'N on a Mission.  Including, things you didn't know about me, my personal favorites, and much more! :) I LOVE birthdays and I think we should all take the time to celebrate our birth during our special time. In celebrating authenticity, I encourage all of YOU to ask me anything you want regarding living a more conscious life. Do you have something you are struggling with? Would you like to know more about how I have, and continue to, overcome the victim mentality? Email missnutrish@gmail.com to pose your questions or leave them on the blog. I look forward to hearing from all of you, and sharing, with heart-filled awareness, my experience of leading a conscious lifestyle.